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Haha.. a guy just confess to me..
Should i be happy..?
Same thing he told me..

" I'm serious..
I can give you happiness..
I really wish to take care of you and protect you..
You are the kind of girl that I like..
I really mean it.."

Is this the 经典对白 for a guy to take a girl's heart..?

Touch..? Shock..?
Hahaha.. I have no idea..

What is love..?
I experienced it before..
Its sweet but yet pain as well..
People keeps telling me how they love me..care for me..
As if it is real..
Show me your love but not just say through words..
I really don't know what am i thinking..
perhaps you will know..?
Something unhappy happened just now..
My mood will only get affected for one reason - Family..
I thought everything is going to end..
But tragedy happens again and again..
It never ends..!
Pain..
Its really pain..
Who can really understand my pain..?
I have been hiding my emotion and keep it well..
Love is everything for me..
Love for family..
Love for friends..
But for sure family is always the first..
For the past relationships..
I'm always serious..
Once i involved in a relationship..
Boyfriend is a part of my family..
Which i care..love..
He is the only shoulder for me..the only person i can depend on..
I give out my heart and i get hurt..
So why should i be so serious..?
Since i feel so insecure in love..
Whats the best way for me to be loved by someone and not being hurt..?
Perhaps playing around..?
Enjoy the happiness even though it is short..
Should it be like that..
Hahaha..
Why troubles keep coming to me..
I need a breath..
I need a hug..
I need a kiss..
Anything it will do to heal my broken heart..
I will not show my negative feelings anymore..
I have learned to accept everything it is..
Angry..
Sad..
If you can see through my eyes..u will feel it..

I just hope to be loved..

270911

烦 的时候没人问..我学会了 承受..
哭 的时候没人哄..我学会了 坚强..
怕 的时候没人陪..我学会了 勇敢..
累 的时候没人可以依靠..我学会了 自立..
就这样我找到了自己..
可贵的是..世界上..只有一个我!
渐渐地我成熟了..有压力才有动力..
因为没有更大的不如意..所以现在的不如意也是幸福的..

一个人的世界..很安静..安静的可以听到自己的呼吸声和心跳声..

冷 了..给自己 加件外套..
饿 了..给自己 买个面包..
病 了..给自己 一份坚强..

失败 了..给自己 一个目标..
跌倒 了..在伤痛中爬起..并给自己 一个宽容的微笑..
想哭 的时候..我会自己一个人在房间里 尽情得哭..
孤独寂寞 的时候..我会 静静的想着某人..
伤心 的时候..我会找个地方静静的发呆..然后告诉自己..还是要面对 坚持下去..
难过 的时候..我会伪装自己..对别人说： ''我很好'' 我很开心..
失落 的时候..我会笑着对自己说..没事的..一切总会过去..

记得..没有过不去的事情..只有过不去的心情!其实只要把心情变一下..世界就完全不同了..

聪明人一定要学会善待自己..
人生总会有那么多的 失败. 挫折. 痛苦.​和 折磨..
这个时候..
请不要闭锁你的心灵..
请不要让自己的心灵布满阴​云..
请不要抛开生活中一切美好的东西..要敞开你的心灵..
当不幸降​临到你身边的时候..学会爱自己..
对自己说：'' 这一切都会过去的..​要珍惜生活中的每一寸光阴..''

互道珍重..对一个已经离开我的人..
我应该让他留下最美的回忆才对..
握在手里不一定就能拥有..
我们所拥有的也不一定要一直握在手里..
如果爱还存在..他跟本没消失..
而如果爱已消失..即使勉强在一起..爱也不会存在..
人与人之间的缘分本来就是这样..有缘起就一定会有缘灭..
在因缘世界中..你 ''拥有'' 了他..
过了那个阶段..缘灭也会开始来临..
爱的可贵在于 "永恒"..而不是永远..
毕竟..
曾经爱过..就曾经幸福过..

互道珍重..
对一个已经离开我的人..
我应该让他留下最美的回忆才对..
毕竟我们也 ''曾经'' 真心爱过对方..

I Though So I Trust

Something that I can't describe myself..
But i can feel it myself..
I trust my own feeling that won't told lie on me..
How i gonna express my feeling..?
I don't want fool by others..
Just i gotta feeling..
What is he to me..?
I concentrated on being next to you..
But you never felt the way why i gonna do this..
I swear every word i told you was true..
If you trust me..just prove to me..
It's not hard to you right..?
The feeling will never gone..
At least you spoil it away..
Before i admit..
Perhaps I've been too naive..thinking that miracle happens..
But now everything was end..
So i trust on my own..
My six sense so true..
I though that at the very end..
I will gradually understand..
That his heart no longer with me..
You are nevertheless insensitive to my concerns for you..
He made me cried..yet i still forgave him with a smile..
All along I've already decided who i wish to be..
I though he was strong enough..
But i became more disappointed as days pass by..
Stop giving me a little hope..where's there no hope..
There won't be have miracle happens..

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你是否..
曾经放纵..
让酒精麻木自己..
让烟熏模糊双眼..
随着音乐忘我的摇摆..
与陌生人共舞..
在人群的你..
是否也和我一样如此痛苦?
也为得到一丝丝的解脱而来到此地..
清醒了..
懊恼怎么那么不爱自己..
我们都只是凡夫俗子..
又怎么可能笑看人生..

L.K.K.F

如果一切只是演戏..
要你好好看戏..
心碎只是我自己..
我想对你好..
你从来不知道..
想你想你也能成为嗜好..

You.leonard..

Leonard Kong Kian Fui.
I really really do miss you a lot..sometime even more than a lot..

Saw other girls find you..

I admit..I will felt jealous..

I know we are just friend.. but the feeling is still there.. I miss the smiles we shared.. I miss the kiss you gave me.. I miss staring at you all the time..

Although when I needed you most when..
You are not in my side..
But I will not blame you..
I can understand..
Love in this world..
Only allows the space to accommodate two people..
You are the man I want to love.. but you are always too crowded..
You have a girl that you like and love..
I do not want to interfere in your life..
I still remember..
These some message that u send me before..

''暧昧''

''Ya i know that why i ask you we ai mei loh..u wont hurt me and i wont hurt u..wait u put down him ma..when ai mei that time i can give u happiness mah to forget him..when u put down him v just discuss we how loh..tell u true u are my first ppl ai mei dui xiang''

''I nevermind just v together de time is happy is already enough i mean v now fren or v ai mei. No waste my time is i want waste my time on u. I have time. Haha.i ok.. You are not bad girl for me..I just wanna treat u as best friend and i want care u.''

''Cuz i have abit feel to u. U can say me stupid . Cuz i'm very stupid. I nt scare hurt. v nt together mah..V ai mei mah ''

Just ask u once time..These all still valid..?

Sometime..you will make me think you are fell in love with me..
In fact..you really did not..
I makes you think i cannot fall in love with you..
And I was moving the heart..YES! I have feel with you..
Well..not that emotional..but i really move the heart..

That's the worst part.. Liking someone so much and knowing he'll never feel the same way..
Because you don't like me..
So when you lonely..
you will not think of me..
And the moment i think of you..
Because you don't like me..
So you don't know..
I am waiting for your concern..but wait until the closing of the heart..
Because you don't like me..
So you don't understand..
Your every move..have command of my heart and life..
You don't concern me..not care about me..
Don't ever know i have been with quiet dedication..
Because you don't know..
I like you..

I just want to hug you so much right now..
Every time i think about you..I have to remind myself that if u want talk to me..You would.~
I Really want talk to you..but I feel like I'm annoying you..
Sometimes..I feel like a little girl who needs protection..
No matter how strong I will get..you are still my weakness..
Sometimes our hearts just need time to accept what our heads already know..

Perhaps we are not together..
You is super man in my heart..
You is my lovely in my heart..

Is He ? Important person in my life forever?
Am I ? Important person in his life forever?
Silly me...~

To Be Continue..

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Every single day i woke up..

And tell myself that..

" Today will be a great day"

And sometime it end up great but sometime not..

But every night before i go to bed..

A tears from my eyes will always drop..

Making me feel so sad..

Sometime i feel i don't even belong here..

Sometime i even feel that i don't deserve to be happy..

When I'm here.. i feel so lonely..

Sometime even lifeless..

Back Kl at least i still feel i have a life..

Even if my friends are busy..

I could still go out by my own..

but here..

i can't..

And it feel so suck..!

I don't know whether i still wanna continue my studies here..

Studying here just make me feel like..

Well..like i said "lifeless"..

I want to be happy..

But why can't i feel that..?

不要对我再说爱 ..

太多爱不明不白..

不明白怎么笑着走出来..

不要对我再说爱..

我坦白 ..

一直忘不了原来..

一段爱..

从不明白到明白..

我的眼泪才慢慢流出来..

就让我..

一个人静静..

流下眼泪..

我真的很累..

以后的事..

就让沉默代替所有的答案..

My Thought.

Loving someone is like a journey..
At first the feeling is not deep..
But after awhile the feeling will become deep..
That is because..
Each day of your life..
You get to know more and more about the person you love..
Some of thing you won't like about them..
They are also some you love about them...
No matter what the little things you don't like about it..
Your heart will still stay in love with them..
If you found that someone..
don't rush things..
It is much better to get to know them first..
Appreciate what you have before you will regret..
If you done something you shouldn't..
Than move on and don't turn back..
Cause that person wont want to you sad..
And let her/him move on too...

Once What I've Believe

I used to believe in all this quotes..

Because of all the bad experience I've been through..

I push myself to change..

But now..

Believing in all this have no effect on me anymore..

Because..even if i believe in this..

There will always be someone there to destroy it..

It's not only that its hurtful..

but at the same time..

it's also very disappointed..

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I begin to miss that beautiful memories..
This is the last..we...sweetest happiness..
The most sincere smile..
what is that..?

How long did not really smile and laugh..
How long did not hear the words of the more pleasant..
How long did the most to feel really embraced..

Just feel their scars..
Resume later recovery..
Recovery later restored..
Today must learn to concede after simmering tears..
This time injuries could only quietly..
Quietly to make everything back to normal..
Harsh words always so very hurt..
sometimes thinking..
In fact..a person does not fear ..
'' I want to calm a few days..''

In short..i lost it for a while..
word..let the tears no way to listen..
But this time they accepted this situation..
I will not shed tears..
Because i know is my fault..
Wayward unruly did not turn over..
Implying..
Director say shot.and u can not say it ?
Producer say do not do..u can say u ?
How do u say on how it..
I say reluctant..could change it ?
Whether to continue the story is not my decision..
7 months 3 weeks 3 days came to an end on so..
Please do not cry..
Because u know..
This is the fault of their own..

Today..
A man who..

Change Your Life..
Change The Character..
Change Everything..