Hmm..I have no idea how to start this post because I'm confusing what the hell I'm thinking of right now.. Sounds ridiculous huh?.. Again..the unknown was caused my mood up-and-down with no reason and no direction..
Confusing about myself?.. my career?..my studies?.. my relationship?..or my future?.. Seriously..I myself don't know what's going on..my mind was totally blank.. I felt lost..uncomfortable..high sense of insecurity.. Thought I'm strong enough to handle my emotions..I failed to do so at the end.. I was nothing..again moody for nothing.. As told by friends..I'm the one who is the strongest among them..I always be the listener.. When friends are unhappy..I will be the one who is standby for them when they need someone to share..to talk..to care.. In this moment..I was emo suddenly..lifeless..
Annoying..my mind is driving me insane..I cried alone.. I shared my thoughts to my friends because I really can't handle it anymore..once I shared and I cried again.. I used to be hide myself and being silence.. not to talk with my friends..doesn't mean I didn't trust on them..I always think of others but not myself.. Never worried by friends because I know I can control myself..calm myself down..but I failed now..
Pretending happy and strong..it can be said that's me.. Sometimes..I'm cheerful person.. Sometimes..I'm emotional person.. Not to say I'm pretending I'm OK..just depends on the situation.. Usually..I named myself as counselor..because my friends love to share and talk with me.. I always advise them in a positive way.. People thought I'm strong..but I'm weak sometimes.. People thought I'm independent..but they never know the behind of story..
Confusing about myself?.. my career?..my studies?.. my relationship?..or my future?.. Seriously..I myself don't know what's going on..my mind was totally blank.. I felt lost..uncomfortable..high sense of insecurity.. Thought I'm strong enough to handle my emotions..I failed to do so at the end.. I was nothing..again moody for nothing.. As told by friends..I'm the one who is the strongest among them..I always be the listener.. When friends are unhappy..I will be the one who is standby for them when they need someone to share..to talk..to care.. In this moment..I was emo suddenly..lifeless..
Annoying..my mind is driving me insane..I cried alone.. I shared my thoughts to my friends because I really can't handle it anymore..once I shared and I cried again.. I used to be hide myself and being silence.. not to talk with my friends..doesn't mean I didn't trust on them..I always think of others but not myself.. Never worried by friends because I know I can control myself..calm myself down..but I failed now..
Pretending happy and strong..it can be said that's me.. Sometimes..I'm cheerful person.. Sometimes..I'm emotional person.. Not to say I'm pretending I'm OK..just depends on the situation.. Usually..I named myself as counselor..because my friends love to share and talk with me.. I always advise them in a positive way.. People thought I'm strong..but I'm weak sometimes.. People thought I'm independent..but they never know the behind of story..
At the end..I was bullshit everything..talking nonsense here.. Just ignore me and leave here if you dislike.. No offense..
